Attentiveness is the
natural prayer of the soul.
Pay attention, there is
no time to rush.
July 19th, 2021
It’s a rollercoaster. Trying to keep my head above water. This time is the perfect example of when it feels impossible to find the good, yet the little things are there. They are all I have.
2. My spaceship.
3. My yoga room.
4. The sun in the guest room.
5. The tin ceiling.
It’s not the strongest species that survives, nor the most intelligent. It’s the one most responsive to change.
So many changes.
We sold my dream. We moved to California. We moved back. We a living in a place that is far from the dream. I’ve been hospitalized and I’m healing. I wake empty and cry throughout the day. I have not been responding well.
Last night, after the dinner to celebrate my 56th birthday, I kissed my babies goodnight and had a revelation. These babies are just entering puberty and I recognize the heartbreaking changes—they don’t talk to me as much (and when they do, we tend to argue), the sweetness is fading and the cynicism growing. I’ve been through it before…twice. It was pissing me off and adding to my recent misery.
But they still kiss me goodnight.
It’s my birthday, and I have decided to stop it. Time is going to march on, whether I am weeping or not. Those boys are going to continue to grow away from me, but they are here NOW. I need to appreciate it ALL.
During the pandemic, I got so tired of everyone talking about gratitude that it made this effort seem trite. So I stopped. The result has not been a positive one. So here I go again, on my 20,440th day on this planet, I will record my 5 Grate Things.
1. My husband making a cake for me.
2. The cards from my boys.
3. The calls from Luke and Grethe.
4. The lovely couch that holds me.
5. Two dry houses.
~I invite you
to stand in AWE
of the glorious
1. the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for.
Notice the Trance
We all do it—switch to autopilot when life gets busy. We forget about what matters. We no longer see the mystery. We start to live small.
It's time to wake up to your life!
Come play with me!
Start to pay attention to the simple gifts in your life. Write them down!
I like to call them my
5 Grate Things
No matter how hard the day, you can always come up with something!
Try not to repeat yourself...
dig for the good stuff and uncover the magic!
"You wander from room to room, hunting for the diamond necklace that is already around your neck." ~Rumi